stresshujungtahun

Ur just part of my 2010 memories.

I moved on.

I'm sorry.

countdown to new year

Everyone is excited for the up coming new year. New life, new resolution and new excitement. trust me, I don't envy them. I am really happy for them. But the fact that my future will not be exactly like how I planned really breaks my heart. I repeat really breaks my heart. From now on, I just need to just go with the flow and not think bout it too much. Allah knows best and He already planned things for me.

Moving on, this year 2010 is really a roller coaster life for me. Tons of fun I had with beloved best friend and my final year classmates rock! I will never forget the times we spent together. However, like I said before it's a roller coaster ride for me. Many bad events happened and I'm glad I managed to deal with it one by one. Of course I didn't do it alone.With the help for my family and friends, my life is back on track.

My hope for 2011 is not much. I hope I will be a better daughter, a great aunt, a good friend, a better muslim with good attitude. And the list for improvement will go on and on.

Thank you 2010 and Welcome 2011

dup dap dup dap

Visitor From Other Side of THe World.

Its been two weeks since my last post I think. And I am surprise to see that I have a visitor from out of Malaysia :) Welcome all. Ecewah. Agak-agak mat salleh ni faham tak entry yg I post dalam BM eh? Well, I'm flattered. Thank You for Your Visit dear Whoever You Are :)

letmekillyouplease

U called after years ago.
U said u are hoping for a second chance.
I said let's just be friends again and see where we will go from there.
and u agreed.
Things went well at first.
But u did it again.

Now,
I have a sleepless night because of you.
That was the worst thing I ever experience!

I wonder how could I forgive you.
I might seem happy during the day but God knows how I cope during the night.
I cry myself to sleep to ease the pain I have.

If only u know how to respect me.
Things will never ended this way.

I wish u will never find happiness.
Because u don't deserve it.
That is how u treat a lady.
I pray that u will burn in hell.

You pay or you go away. Welcome to Charming!

OKAY. Let's make it official. I am currently addicted to this series from FOX.

The jacket, the casts, the big bikes and the loyalty turns me on.

His name is Jax Teller. His body is total hotness.

Big thanks to a friend that gave me complete season 1 & 2. I'm attached now!

family matters

This week is very busy for me. I can't cope with time and it very much tests my patience. Well, first of all, my dear 2nd nephew Mikhail is having chicken pox. Since it is contagious, he have to be separated from his elder brother Mukhreez and his little sister Mishel. So, my sister sent him to me :) Therefore, I am committed in taking care of my Mikhail. Kesian dia okay. I need to ensure that he takes his medicine on time. And its really hard. Ye lah, kids don't like medicine. So all the pujuk rayu and candy bribe is on. Anything to make sure he recovers. And the disease kan very itchy, so, he had trouble sleepy at night and I will be staying up all night help him with the itchiness. But now he is recovering and he will go back to his house in 2-3 days time. Insyaallah. It breaks my heart to know that Mikhail misses Mukhreez so much cause he has no friends to play with. Every night he will call Mukhreez and say how much they misses each other. That's a pure brotherhood i tell you.

Today, Saturday, I woke up at 5 am and followed ibu to Puchong. Her office mates were having this charity thing at a house for elderly. I followed her and be one of the volunteer. This was another heartbreaking moments for me. Listening to those nenek how derhaka their children really hits me. Some of them were very rich people but their children to their money and left them there. I hope I will never turn out to be like them. I won't let money control me. I love my parents for what they had done to me.

I also help doing things in the kitchen. Since this charity were in conjunction with Aidiladha celebration. So, ada jugak lah lembu and kambing di korbankan. I'm in the Red Team which in charge with the preparation of foods. Well, it's my thing =) I learn a lot from the org kampung. :) This event kind of a reminder to me to always be humble and respect each other.

Tomorrow is going to be my friend's wedding day.
Selamat Pengantin Baru Husnidar.

aunty on duty

Malam ini saya bertugas untuk menjaga dua budak nakal yang saya sayang sangat.
sila jangan nakal ye mukhreez dan mikhail.
aunty myra loves you!

gonna miss this!

My oh my. I'm up early again today. But there is nothing to study or memorize anymore. No need to study. This is very awkward. Having to study from early morning till my paper starts is nerve-wrecking. And now, even though its not official, I am no longer a student. Well, as far as I remember, I have been studying since forever. Started with kindergarten, then primary school for 6 year and another 5 years in high school then off to Kedah for another 1 and a half year and finally 3 years of bachelor in Shah Alam. Non stop I tell ya!

What I will miss the most about being a student is having the ability to wake up in the morning and still thinking whether to go to class or not. kan? I bet working people can't do that right? Rindunyaaaa. Bangun pagi, tengok jam, pastu rasa 'malas lah gi class hari ni.' then text member, 'awak, boleh tolong signkan utk kita tak?' haha. THAT IS NORMAL TO ME!

For me as a student, LUNCH time is the time of my life. No lectures to listen to and just eat and chit chat with friends is LOVE. Regardless of what we eat at that time. Makan dekat Perindu, cafeteria, roti himpit, pergi Mais, Seksyen 7, Hakim.. U name it we tried it. haha. Okay, imagine this eh, class finish at 12.30 pm but we all started to plan on where to have lunch since 11.00 am. How lah to focus study like this?

And don't let me get started with ASSIGNMENTS. There were lotsss of it. Banyak gila kot. And walaupun ada yg bagi dateline sampai 2 weeks after or even 3 weeks after the assignment give, saya tetap akan buat 3 hari sebelum dateline itu. haha. Typical me. and most of u too kan?

For me, being a student means BAJU KURUNG EVERYDAY! haha. unless I woke up late lah kan. hehe. Baju kurung is essential part of my week. Tak tahu kenapa. I prefer baju kurung than wearing jeans and shirt to class. I remember, having to pack up 5 sets of baju kurung every week. Then i'll be in ampang for the weekend and pack another 5 sets of baju kurung. I will go panic if there is an event that need me to wear baju kurung coz I brought enough just for the week. hehe. memories... :)


I am grateful for the memories and I would never regret or trade it for anything else! Seriously!

crush on a boy

It's been three days since I last online since I am very busy with my Insolvency II and Association 1 on Saturday and Sunday. Lama gila rasa tak online. But it's not like I die if I dun update my life pon kan. :) This morning I woke up and read the newspaper and BOOM the front page. Diana Danialle is in love with my favourite actor in the whole world FARID KAMIL. alahaaai. geramnyaaa. I don't mind korang nk kata dia handsome ke tak ke. hehehe. For me, he is handsome! I have a crush on him since forever! hehe. Just look at this picture.

Okay, hot stuff baby.

See, told ya he's hot. haha. Well coming back to reality, I'm having my last paper on the 9th. I really mean LAST! omg. Time flies so fast right? I wonder what install for me next year? Let's pray for the best! Hopefully I can graduate on time! <3

saket weih

hari ni tak nice langsung. tadi paper family mcm ape je. but i'm praying for the best. tawakal is what i can do now. insyaallah. dah la jawab soalan mcm tu kan, dan dan pergi parking kereta jatuh pulaaaak. dah lama x sembah bumi ni. alahai. buruk bebenor eh rupanya. adoi. mmg siot lah kereta yg ada tumpahan minyak tu. geram betul. kan sekarang dah terseliuh. agak tempang lah sekejap. adoyai. hopefully lepas sapu minyak ni ok lah by the time for next paper. aminnn. gonna rest my ankle and sleep early. i have to wake up early tomorrow. hope tomorrow will turn out better than today.

bangbang

rasa nak hantuk kepala kat dinding.
ada nak teman tak?

suka saya lah.

I'm sitting alone at a corner
Wondering will I ever be happy again
Time flies moments passed
I'm still sitting alone at a corner
Wondering...

ticktocktick

Time Management is very important MYRA! ok baik. mari kita bahagi masa dgn betul ye. chayok myra. you can do it! saya perlu motivasikan diri sendiri ye. haha

p/s: agak2 sampai bila boleh positive je mcm ni? haha

Awesome

Heyya. I'm taking few minutes break from Jurisprudence. Tak tahan baca lama sangat. It's obvious that blogging is more fun that reading Jurisprudence. This post I solely dedicate to my current FAVOURITE TV SERIES. Wondering what show?? still wondering??? waiit for it... heheh. my one and only HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER. This show is extremely cool and funny. The fact that they emphasizes on the importance of friendship and brotherhood really caught me. Sukaaaanya mereka semua! I have all five seasons and will be updating to the 6th season during the break :) Can't wait beybeh.

My favourite quotes from Barney.

stop and think, be grateful.

THIS IS A REMINDER TO ME AND MAYBE TO THOSE WHO READ THIS POST.
YA ALLAH, I'M SO BLESSED TO STILL BE ALIVE.

ouch!

Poyo pulak tengok gambar sendiri terpampang kat blog ni. besaq plak tu. So, terpaksa lah post blog lain. haha. Alasan. Pergi baca juris lah myra. haha. Sebenarnya kan, perut kita sakit lah. Dari semalam lagi. Haiya. Welcome back Gastritis. Lama tak jumpa. Apa khabar? Mesti sakit kan? haha. Geram lah perut cramp ni. sakit okay! Asyik rasa nak baring je. hahah. Alasan lagi sekali. :) Today is 28th already! yay! My parents is coming back. Today's flight at midnite! By morning of 29th, they will be home. Insyaallah. Everything will go as plan. Okay. Encik Juris, tolong lah jangan nk complicated sangat. Letih lah baca benda sama byk kali. Eh, lupa. Positive thoughts. Owh. Adam telefon plak. ok done. Myra, sila lah baca juris tu dgn ikhlas. Allah mesti tolong punya nanti kan? Ok. Yakin myra yakin. Lepas ni baca satu bab n faham baru tido ok? Tummy jangan nk sakit k. Dah makan ubat dah tadi :)

macam ni lah rupa saya tadi sakit perut.
tp badan xde lah kurus mcm tu.
konon2 je.
hihi.

ohsayasangatstress.

Saya tgh belajar Jurisprudence II.
Tapi saya dah penat.
Ada 6 topic lagi ni.
Agak2 boleh ke tak eh?

Jom cuba.

one done bebeh.

Hello again people. Yesterday was not okay. You see, semalam was my first paper of my final semester. Owh. International Law pulak. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping that i can pass this paper.well, It's done. Ayah kata doa je yang mampu ubah keputusan. Ok ayah, I'll remember this. The minute I write this, I had just finished eating my baked pasta that I cook this morning. Delicious. haha. Bangga dengan masakan sendiri. Ecewah.

Jurisprudence II is my next mission!

I miss my parents so much! Can't wait for both of u to fly back home.

THIS IS LOVE

The Pressure Is ON.

Well, study week already started. I have to admit the first two days not much I have been studying pon. But Insyaallah, I'll managed to cover what I need to when the time comes. My health condition is not so good lah this week. The time of the month is coming. All the pre-period effects is coming. I really have to overcome it. If not mmg tido je lah jawabynya. I cant expect other to help me since this is the thing i need to do myself. Ye lah. if I don't take care of my body, who will? So, having to be healthy mentally will surely help me physically. Am I right? Having to accept the fact that this is the FINAL of all finals exam is really scary. Bittersweet emotion hit me. I have been through alot since my days in Kedah and now in Shah Alam. My family and close friends knows how i switch between friends during my whole 4 years in Uni. I've been with a lot of clan that doesn't really suit me. But its not their fault and I humbly admit some of it was because of me. If u notice I have been with different group of people through out the semester. I have no regret at all. :) Each of them have their own unique way. So I'm blessed to have them part of my uni experience. :)


Coming back to studies, I have extra paper this last semester. I was so damn frustrated by it at the beginning. But after awhile, I'm glad. I know Allah planned awesome things for me. I have new friends. I learn more. And I know that its not because I'm stupid that I repeat the paper. It is just Allah's way of telling me to be grateful with what u have and don't forget to always respect other people. I understand that everything happens for a reason. This time I know the reason.


It's late and I still need to get back to my International Law subject. This is difficult but it's a challenge I'm willing to take :)

twenty-one

I dun even know where to start. haha. well, me and 20 others went for a nice havoc dinner at sunway :) It was a blast! Tak sangka all the guys pon sporting habis. I havent laugh so hard that it made me wanna cry at the same time. At the food, its refillable. Who doesnt like that rite? We eat and laugh all night. Well u see, its all start when 6 of us wanted to break fast together but since we are too busy that fasting month we decided to postponed it. Then we all fikir, apa ada hal kan, meh ajak the boys sekali. hihi. so we invited Fyzal, Afiq, Mumu, Adib and Azrul. HAHA. since its mendapat sambutan, lagi ramaaaaaaaaai yg nk join. sory x mentioned but u know who u are people :) so, there its is. 21 of us! coincidencely, the date was on 01.10.10 when u add up, what will u get? 21~ :) I'm blessed for having them in my life.
We will definitely do an outing again!


LOVE ALL OF YOU SO MUCH

its hard to let go.

Semua org cakap bila kita accept our regrets, forgive ourself and move on, mesti everything will be alright. I tried. I did. Sumpah. Aku doa. Aku berubah. And org yg rapat je taw mcm mana aku dulu and sekarang. OK. itu achievement aku yg paling aku bangga.

But, at times, the past nightmare will still haunt me down. Bila ingat balik, aku mmg marah lah diri sendiri. Benci pon ada. Dah try mcm-mcm dah nk let go nightmare ni. Sekejap ok sekejap tak. Aku ingat aku dah move on. Tapi hakikatnya, aku rasa aku masih belum maafkan diri sendiri. maybe sebab itu lah aku still tak boleh nak lupa nightmare tu.

Kenapa ye mcm tu? Nak kata tak try, aku rasa aku cuba. Ada cara lain ke? I need to re-cleanse my mind, body and soul. Yes, now aku mengaku. Aku perlu pertolongan. :(

excited mood.

There is something about the holiday that makes me extremely happy. I just love lazing around at home and being with my family. well you see, I don't have much friends. Maybe it's because of me or I just cant get along with them. I don't blame them though. They don't think like me as same goes to me. then again, it's nobody's fault.

Well, coming back to the family moment, raya is coming up soon. Of course I can't wait. The food, the family gathering.owh. i miss my cousins so much. This raya will not be the same. New family members we have. :) my one and only niece baby Mishel Nafeesa and my only sis in law Kak Huda. However, my sis will be going to her hubby's kampung at Kedah. So, i have my parents all to myself. yay! no more cucu to curi the limelight. haha. :)

Move On. I know I did.

When I decided to change on how i see people and accept them, it is surely for real. And trust me, I don't know whether or not I should tell others that I have a new perspective on people. Allah pun ada kata yang benda baik tak perlu nak dihebohkan. So, why don't you accept the fact that I am not the person I was before. I made lots of mistake by judging others based on other people opinion. That is something I should have not do at the first place. Now, I am not that person anymore. I'm being friends with everyone regardless how others sees it. But as long as I have no problem with them, whats the issue? I'm telling you, I don't have to explain things to you in anyway. So. please back off! I don't owe you any explanation. That's the end of it. I befriend with whoever I want whether you like it or not. Allah knows best.

its the season

i notice everyone i know is now sick including me. its the season again. Emma, is down for denggi. (please get well soon dear.i'll pray 4 u) izzati with her sakit mata and cough. Eilya is having bad headache due to the accident on the field. Yaya is also having fever (recovered) Rozy is the only one with high immune system and me, slight on and off fever with a bad sore throat that leads to cough and flu now. The amount of stress with life and uni leads to the low immune system i guess. or maybe the fact that we take health for granted lead to the sick season rite? the fact that we forget how to take care of our body and wouldn't listen to our body is the really main factor.

and this time is ramadan. and i'm having a bad gastric that worries me. can i do my fast for the whole month without any gastritis attack? i hope so. i can't focus in class when i'm sick. my body is here and my mind is elsewhere. how can i overcome this? lets be hardworking like most of my other friends are. jealous in a positive way lah okay.

It's okay Myra. Just be patient and take good care of your health okay. and everything will be alright. Insyaallah.

Let's do this instead MYRA!


By the way, i'm spending my weekends at home. OMG. Finally. Its about time. It's been two weeks i didn't get to be with my family. There's this seminar i have to attend. but, good things will come after few sacrifices rite? Having the chance to break-fast with my family is awesome. I know that not all have the chance to be with their family during ramadan. I am very grateful for everything i have.

Plus i love going to bazaar ramadan!

If only I could turn back time

Yes, I'm writing this and cries at the same time. I dun even know where to begin and how to explain. the only think in my mind is figuring out how sorry i am to you. I really regret for what I've done. and I'm really sorry for it. i know u won't be reading this post but i just need to let it out. I know i made mistake and i really promise i will never ever ever ever do it again. i wasn't thinking straight and i clearly didn't realize the implication on the act.

To whom it may concern,

i am really sorry for what i've done.

i love u so much.
i know you will never understand why i did what i did.

sorry again.

Sometimes, i'm stuck.
Being a normal teenager or force myself to be like how you want me to be. i really have no intention to make you mad. but at times, i really wants you to accept that i'm growing up. i need my space too. i love you so much you will never know. But it hurts when i need to chose what will make you feel good and what i really want. i'm mad at myself because i know i devoted myself to make you happy. but now, i guess i broke it. i'm sorry. i'm just so mad at myself and when you are not here. it became worst. i really need to hug u right now. if only your here. :( please give me a second chance and let me prove myself to you. Please don't cry. I love you, IBU.

Do I have the permission to be frustrated?

Everyday is suppose to be fun for me. However, thursday is not being nice to me. I was told that my class was cancel last minute. I should have just go back to ampang. To add up this bad mood, my broadband line was barred. Plus, the service provider didn't sent any notification about it. Tiba-tiba je barred. This makes me more angry and frustrated. Furthermore, I was told that my ultimate weekend plans that I'm looking forward to is not going to happen. Grrr. I know I'm not supposed to be angry and just take all this positively but the frustration is killing me. Feels like going to the tallest building and scream my heart out. It's annoying when you are having this feelings that you are advised not to. My heart is dealing with a dilemma. To be mad or not to be mad.

In the end, it's up to me to control how I feel and react to this feelings right? Well, I choose to forget it and let's not really put too much hopes in future. Insyaallah. Let's put a smile in your face Myra. Everything will be alright.

perempuan kepochi

I was re-writing my IL notes when the guy i like came in my mind. HAHA. I immediately stop writing. =) He is tall and handsome. The last time I heard from him was when he said the will be waiting the love of his life on the Empire State Building. But she never came. How stupid to reject a handsome and classy boy. Pelik ke? The handsome boy I was talking about is Chuck Bass. my owh my. He is adorable, egoist but charming. I am so in love with him. hehe. Gossip girl never fail to make me feel like i was part of them. It was nerve-wrecking waiting for each episode each week. My god, the waiting part always kills me. It's sad that season 3 of Gossip Girl has come to an end few months ago. And the worst part was when the last episode was when Chuck Bass was stabbed. Arggh. I can't get enough of Chuck Bass. =) Future boyfriend, please be a lot like Chuck Bass will ya? From this series, I made it clear to myself, in god willing, insyaallah, once I'm able to travel with my own money, I WILL GO TO NEW YORK! Upper East Side to be exact. That's where my beloved Chuck Bass lives. Too much of an obsession right? But at least I can be where he used to act. Enough of Chuck Bass for a while. IL notes is calling me!

GG SEASON 1

GG SEASON 2

GG SEASON 3

NAUGHTY BOY

you know you love me.
xoxo

new vibe

Well well. It's been a very long time since my last entry. the last few weeks was awesome. I think differently. I am much more positive now. I smile a lot. and by that i really mean a lot. Definitely, I love the changes I am going through right now. I don't worry about everything anymore. Thanks because my schoolmate Liyana B, really help me open up on the good things in life. Not only that, I still have time appreciating what Allah gave me. I am blessed to have such a wonderful family and friends. I am cheerful now =) I know I need to improve more and learn so much in life. But life is a learning process. I accept it with open arms.

Phuket,Thailand.

Well, on the 26 June 2010, my parents took me to Phuket. It's a mini vacation for me. Well, my ibu said its her way to let go all of the stress she had in the office. Well I would say I agree with her.It's a great way for me to start the new semester. The beach was fun. The food was awesome. I would love to go there again!

Berpada-pada lah hidup ye.

It's been 2 weeks since new semester starts. and I still can't find my study moods. It's all over the place lah rasanya. Well, for the first week, I was sick. Gastrik katanya. Everything I ate all seems to go down the toilet. Muntah okay. haha. I can't handle sickness when I am not at home. I don't know why. Bila kat Shah Alam je I will have poor health. Kenapa ye? Mengada kot. Well, the doc told me that I need to change my eating habits in order to ease the stomach ache i felt. No more spicy food. The instance I heard what she told me, I was like OMG! That's the only kind of food I love to eat. How can I handle not eating things I love? Surviving the first few days without spicy food was HELL. Tapi bila difikirkan kesihatan and kerisauan family. Automatik pedas xde dah dalam hidup ni. Harap-harap lepas ni dah takde lagi sakit perut ni.

Azam baru kali ni.

HEALTHY FOOD ONLY!

Michael Jackson with his beautiful children - You Are My Life - lyrics HQ

bersyukur aje. susah ke?

I just don't get it. Kenapa nak berlagak sana sini dengan ape yg kita ada. Yes. I get it. and I can see how perfect your life is. The perfect boyfriend, the perfect family, the perfect job and the perfect friends. Tapi like how a friend of mine said, relax sudah. Tak perlu kot nak bangga sangat. Sekali Tuhan tarik rezeki tu, kau nk menyesal? Jangan lah macam tu. Rendah diri skali sekala kan elok. Bila kau dah ada semua pastu kau complain pulak. Tolong lah beringat and bersyukur sekejap. Nak mengamuk tak tentu hala bila barang yg nk tu tak dapat lah. Orang tu terlalu busy lah. Apa benda lah. Rasa lah susah sikit. Tak boleh ke? Semua orang tahu betapa gembira nya kau sekarang kan. Tapi tolong lah berhati-hati ye. Bila semua dah tiada. Kau ada apa lagi? I am not having a perfect life like yours. And if u think that I envy you, please think again. Course I am not. But just be grateful. Tak semua org dapat kegembiraan yang kau rasakan tu. So, pandang2 lah orang lain sama.

You really made me realize that I don't own as much as you but I am living my life by appreciating things more.

keliru

i am really confuse with myself rite now.
haywire in my brain
i need to think carefully.
if not i will end up humiliating myself.
ahaks!

tiba-tiba

i wonder, will anyone miss me once i'm gone?

NOTE TO SELF

yes, my body's system need to restart.
especially mentally.
new adventures need to be tackle for next semester.
and the battle is on.

learn from the mistakes.
and the victory will be yours.
amin..

please dong.

tolong jangan judge saye okay.
awak tak tahu ape pon pasal saye.

i'll be nice once u are nice to me.

i thought u are diff.
i guess I'm wrong.

Loneliness

i'm 22 and i'm alone.

Current Obsession

DIMAS OH DIMAS

I LOVE YOU, AYAH!

My handsome ayah is soooo funny. He accidentally add water with excess of soap to the fountain. hahahah.
Ayah ayah.. you are so funny!
I love you to bits!

heart break

I know God is reminding me
Not to take things for granted.
I admit that this happens for a reason.
God, you are not angry at me right?
You are just testing me.
Deep down I know you love me too.
It takes time to process this.
But I will take the challenge.
I miss you so much ALLAH.
I really do.
I'm sorry.

An Unplanned Concert.

I was planning to go to Faizal Tahir Adrenalin Showcase on the 30 May. However, its not my rezeki like ibu said cause everytime i try to plan, there must be something came up. :( Fortunately, kak udha text me to know whether or not i wanted to go to Rossa Melodi Cinta Concert at Stadium Putra Bukit Jalil. Hell yeah. I wanted to go. So, I accepted the offer without thinking who to bring. I called my best friend Shazrin and she said she got things to do. I called Eilya, she said her roadtax is due. So, i ended calling my coolest ex boyfriend and still best friend to be my date for the night. Yes, he. The person who is not a favour in my family. and I don't know why. Well, after negotiations with the family, i was able to go. Ayah insisted on us to go by LRT. "Takot jalan jam petang nnt". So, we did. Guess what, we ended stranded at the LRT station for nearly an hour. LRT tu rosak sana sini katanya. I was down. I was panicked thinking that we will be late fr the show. However, the luck is still with us. We made it on time. We got the best seats. Not to crowded. I love it.

When the show began, we sang through out the songs. The best part was there was a guest performance with one of my favourite indonesian bands. ST12. I was like screaming to them. Greated night i tell ya. That is not all, immediately after ST12, Ungu performed! Double the fun. i'm soooo in love with them! seriously.

It was tired but tons of fun! i hope u had fun too syahid. TQ for accompanying me.

me and syahid

The Concert!

Thanx to my parents for giving me the green light to go, my abg and kak udha for the tix, my kakak for helping to pujuk ibu and Syahid for enjoying this with me.

Happy Birthday Myra!

This is my birthday cake :)

It's my 22nd Birthday. OMG. I can't believe my birthday is here. Well, our routine as a family to have a birthday dinner. Kakak asked me where to go, well, i always wanted to got to eat Chilli's. So, after 6 pm, we went to Chilli's @ KLCC. Masalahnya, it was extremely lots of people in the waiting list. and my family was very hungry. We ended up settling down at San Fransisco Steak House at Ground Floor. The food is expensive but it is reasonable considering to it is delicious. While waiting for the food to come, kakak gave me a surprise birthday cake. A PINK PILLOW SHAPED CAKE WITH A PAIR OF SNEAKER ON TOP OF IT. Very cute and nice. This year, i didn't receive any presents but i know the best gifs of all is the LOVE and SUPPORTS i get from them. Besides, having Kak Udha and Mishel to our family is a great addition! I love my family so much. No words can describe how much i adore each of them.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANITH AMYRAH

Cinta Tak Direstui

Hari ini aku putuskan
Untuk jauh ku langkahkan kaki
Untuk pergi dari dirimu


Biarkanlah kan kubawa
Sejuta harapan yang indah
Yang pernah kita lalui
Saat bersama
Ku harap kau bisa mengerti
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Malam ini harus
Rela ku pergi


Maafkanlah kekasih
Ku harus tinggalkanmu
Meski ku tahu ini menjadi
Kau sakit hati


Relakanlah kekasih
Tutup air matamu
Semua ini aku lakukan
Untuk kebaikanmu

Dengarkanlah kekasih
Ku harus tinggalkanmu
Meski ku tahu ini menjadi
Kau sakit hati
Relakanlah kekasih
Tutup air matamu
Ini semua aku lakukan
Untuk kebaikanmu

Dengarkanlah kekasih
Ku harus tinggalkanmu
Meski ku tahu ini menjadi
Kau sakit hati
Relakanlah kekasih
Tutup air matamu
Semua ini aku lakukan

Untuk kebaikanmu

Song by ST12

Passion For Indonesian Songs

Indonesian songs. OMG. I don't even know where to start. I definitely have passion with indonesian songs. Their songs are so honest, not exaggerated and easy to remember. You know I'm right. There are few bands I like the most. But honestly, I don't go deep with the band. I listen to their songs only. I personally think that Indo songs rawks my world. I notice that each songs will remind me of someone, some things or place, and even some events. You know, the happy songs, the break up song, the first met song, and even the first fight song. haha.


Kalau tiba2 dengar any songs kat radio kan, mula lah emo sana sini. Teringat lah. I'm a person who listen to songs and really go into the lyrics. Somehow it will connect with my life. I will browse in at you-tube for new songs. I will force my friends to introduce me with Indo bands I don't know about. Instantly, after 1 song, it will stuck in my head and automatically be downloaded to my pen-drive, music play-list and my phone.


It's not like I don't appreciate our local bands. But I have my own opinion right? I still listen to our local songs yeah. Please don't get me wrong. I just like Indo songs better.

Well, thank you Armada, Sheila on 7, Peterpan, Wali Band, ST12, Ungu, Kerispatih, Ada Band, Nidji, Melly Goeslaw, Afgan, Gigi, Andra & The Backbones, Dewa 19, Radja, Rossa, Slank, Cokelat, Padi, The Rocks, Romance, Anang, Kris Dayanti, Ari Lasso, D'Massive, Hijau Daun, Kangen Band, Letto, Project Pop, Samsons, Seventeen, Kotak Band and etc. etc.

p/s: Songs from these Indonesian people really made my teenage life meaningful.

Myra, jangan lupa.

Myra, siapa diri kamu ni sebenarnya? Myra jangan lupa diri. Janga lupa seimbangkan dunia dan akhirat ya. Entah kenapa rasa sangat benci dgn apa yg dah sebati dlm diri ni. Perasaan yg negatif seperti pentingkan diri, kadang2 boleh lupa menghormati, lalai dgn dunia. Allah je yg tahu kenapa dan saya sendiri perlu bangun untuk berubah menjadi manusia yg ada di landasan yg betul. Kalau difikirkan dosa dari mula baligh sampai dewasa, masyaAllah. mungkin tak terkira byknya. Macam dah give up untuk hidup pun ada. Tp Dia mengetahui, Dia terima rintihan ampun umatnya.

"Ya Allah, Kau ampunkan lah dosa2 ku, kedua ibubapa ku, mereka yang aku sayangi. Sesungguhnya Engkau yg mampu mengampuni hambaMu ini. "

Dunia dah maju. Teknologi pun tambah maju. Hati kita pun maju. Tapi kenapa kemajuan yg ada dalam hati itu tidak sejajar dgn akal dan ilmu tuhan kita? Manusia makin maju berusaha untuk menipu sesama umat, membazir dgn kekayaan, membunuh untuk kepuasan. Jika dilihat, manusia ada pelbagai idea, semua idea tu hebat. Tapi kenapa idea yg ada ini, digunakan untuk kearah kekayaan dunia? Padahal, yg kekal adalah akhirat dan bukan dunia.

Saya juga perlu berubah. Berhijrah ke arah kebaikan. Bukan bermegah dgn rasa hati ini yg saya dah ckup hebat, cuma ingin mengingati diri. Siapa lah saya untuk bercerita tentang agama kan? Tetapi fikirkan, sejauh mana kita gunakan ilmu yg kita pinjam dari yg Esa untuk ke arah kebaikan?

Jika kita berniat untuk berubah ke arah Allah, pasti Dia akan tolong kita.
InsyaAllah

Rasa hati ini hanya untuk renungan peribadi dan muhasabah diri.

Dear Diary..

I was still young when i started to write in my first diary. Somehow, the satisfaction of holding a pen and write I already forgotten. I remember writing when I am really angry, sad, or even happy. I also remember writing on how i like or dislike certain people. haha. I grew up to a more controllable person. I stated thoughts to myself in a diary and i made through my high school years with wonderful memories. However, things changed when i enter into university life. i completely ignored my need to write in order to release anything that is bothering me. Maybe i thought it's so childish to still keep a diary. ANd also ashamed of what others might say about me. The feeling of being to be accepted was so important in order to make friends at campus. I didn't see other people doing it. So, i stop writing my on my feelings, thoughts, opinion or to get my anger out. Well, since then, I've become a person who filled with anger, sensitive, depressed and having mood swings all the time. I don't really know myself anymore. I seems cant let go of the feelings I'm having and its been inside me for a very long time. oh may I say, years. i forgot how happy I was after writing and letting go my feelings. I forgot how i nice i am. I forgot how easy to just forgive, let go and just move on. And its all because I stop writing. how stupid I am for stopping just because trying to fit in. Now i know that, giving up on what i do to make myself comfortable was definitely a very stupid decision. OMG, what was i thinking back then? I was a calm person and cheerful too. Now, I'm always worry on things, angry unnecessarily and very emotional person. The only way to let go all the negative aura in me is just continue writing. I blame myself for this.

Its not too late to get things back to normal.

A simple start will do

:)